Free time

As I said a few nights ago I would be back.  My trip in California went as suspected it would, eventful in small ways and life changing for my friend.  It was great to see all my family and friends.  Jake had a great time as well,  my parents fell in love with him and he made three new friends with my parents dogs.  They all had fun, especially him digging trenches and to China in my parents backyard trying to go after a gopher. 

The wedding cake turned out pretty nicely as well!  I know this is probably biased and all but my cake was awesome!  It was super moist and full of so much flavor, when I get some photos I will put them up for you all.  Seriously though that cake was awesome and so were all 50 cupcakes and 24 mini-cupcakes.  The Bride looked lovely as ever and the groom looked absolutely dashing of course.  Now as for my dress, I do not want to put pictures up of THAT dress, but I know you all probably want to see it though, to be totally honest I hated the dress (sorry Kaitlyn).  I wasn't a fan of the dress, the color I didn't mind, what bothered me was the fit, it did nothing for me and brought out my worst features and showed off all the wrong curves and not the right ones, I pretty much looked like a freakin cow!  Yes, I did just say that.  I felt extremely uncomfortable in the whole thing, but I did it anyways, you know why?  The Bride is one of my girls, and I will do anything for her and all my other friends!

Right now I'm really intrigued with this new show called 7 Days of Sex, its actually really interesting.  Its where a couples who are on the rocks decide to spend seven whole days straight of having sex, they have to do it at least once a day, so far they are four days in and each couple is feeling closer, but it looks like they are each about to take a step backwards.  I think the message here is that each couple has to have a form of intimacy in their relationship or there are some issues.  I agree with this, yes having sex everyday is a little ridiculous and very hard to do, but there still needs to be some.  I know some of you might think I'm being a little niave because I'm still a newly wed but let me tell you something, I have gone through months with out any because my husband has been away for training in the past and I've had friends who have gotten none for almost year because of their husband being deployed.  I believe that sex is an important part of a relationship, no not a huge part but it is needed.  Oh and if you have a problem with this post, then don't read it!

I'm Home!

I know, I know it has been a while since I last posted, I'm sorry.  I know there really aren't any excuses but I was packing for California, then was in California and getting ready for my friends wedding, and then I've been trying to recuperate.  I know sucky excuse but its all true.  I'm not totally in the mood to write tonight because I have to clean literally EVERY room in the apartment, especially since David left it a mess last weekend and I haven't totally fully unpacked yet.  I will write later tomorrow hopefully or even Sunday, either when David isn't on his computer or when I have taken him back.  Goodnight everyone nice to be back!

So many frustrations!!!!

Ever had that feeling like something has cracked inside of you?  I've been feeling like that lately to be honest with you, and I really don't but kind of do know whats going on.  I think it has to do with stress and some other deep down problems I guess you could say.  The stress of my friends wedding; like for instance the dress I have to fit my fat ass into,  I guess I'll be getting a lot spanx!  Then there is the cake, man can you say nerve racking!  Oh and lets put on top of all this everything else.  You need an explanation first I guess, David got his orders and we are going to Fort Stewart, Georgia.  Yes, Georgia of all places, no where near where we thought we would get, but oh well I guess that's the Army huh?  Well now we have to look into a new home, packing everything, and trying to start all over.  I know this is what we signed up for but still does it really get any easier?  Don't get me wrong I'm excited to be going somewhere new and taking another step in our adventure together, but its kind of draining and I've still got a couple of months.  David and I have decided that I need to go back to school, well more David pushing me to go back, so now I got to try and find a school and that is a little worrysome also!  I've been out of school for about a year now and super nervous to go back. 

Then also I'm not doing the Revolution, I wish I was but I don't think I can.  I really wanted to but I didn't have any help.  I'll get to my goal with help from family and friends, I did it once before and I'll do it now.  The only problem I guess is that I'm super unhappy with myself so Its making my life and emotions a wreck and I feel like its putting a burden on us, but David being the sweet heart he is loves me for every pound that I am.  I'm super lucky to have a man that loves me for me, I wish I could love me for me as much as he does though.  He did say something that is bothering me but I know that its because he wants whats best for us, but it still kind of hurts because it changes what we have been talking about for the last couple of months.  I love him and I always will, so I'll get over it. 

On a happier note David and I adopted this great new addition to our family.  A cute 6 year old red Dauschund named Jake!  Also those of you who are readers from California, I'll be there in five days!!!!!!!!  Exciting huh?

Whats on my mind

Hi everyone, I would like to apologize for taking off my last post, even though a lot of you enjoyed it and said I should keep it up.  I took it down for a couple of reasons, none of them having to do with Joeschmo1992's comment on that post.  No the reason I took it down was because the way things are now in our society, I didn't want to take the chance of this affecting a current or future job/career for either David or myself.  Which seriously disgusts me to the core, and here is the reason why.  Including myself I have five friends whose husbands are in the armed forces and countless friends, they are here to defend our freedoms and rights in this country from anything foreign or domestic.  So if MY OWN husband is doing this for me, when did it become that I can't write what I WANT, all because it offends someone.  Well to be honest those people have the right to tell me what they think and that I shouldn't have written it, but when did it come down that I have to accommodate them.  They didn't treat me with any respect and say it with some respect so where are my writes to say what I want.  When did it come down to the fact that if you offend someone that you have to bend to their wants to make them feel better.  It comes back to employers asking for the password of their future employees for their Facebook accounts!  Where did that right go for the American people?  That was the whole foundation for us declaring our independence, we did it with the freedom of speech!  So why can't I do it now?  Yes I was a tad pissed off to be honest, but I'm calm now.  What really bothered me was that the post was not bad at all, I gave everyone plenty of warning ahead of time and second it wasn't even as bad as the magazine I love; Cosmopolitan, or as bad as media does in all of the commercials, TV shows, or Movies.  I guess to keep everyone happy I will be more careful of what I post from now on.  If you don't like something you read then fine, if it upsets you enough then don't read my blog anymore, but I will try and keep everyone in mind when I decide to write something out of the box.  Hope everyone has a great day!

GRRRRRR......................

I hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I feel like all I'm doing is setting myself up for failure by trying to lose weight and look a certain way.  I know that I will never be a tiny, but the sad part is I keep trying to have the image in my head that I will be that small but I know that I wont!  I tell people that but the hardest part is trying to convince myself.  I think maybe me going on the Revolution might help.  UGH..........why is this so hard!  All I want to do is be negative but I know I should cut myself a break since I've lost some inches but still!  Why is this so hard?  I'm so frustrated at the moment!  The sad part is that this has been a life long battle with me and I just try to stay motivated.  Why is it so hard to lose the weight or inches but so easy to put it on?

Well I guess I have to be positive in some way, so here is this months measurements:

Weight-200 lbs (+4 lbs)
Bust-42" (same)
Waist-36" (same)
Hips-46" (-2")
Thighs-23" (-12")
Arms-16" (+2")


I've been contemplating for a while whether or not I should tell you all about this but then I realized that the more I'm honest with you on here the more I'm honest with myself.  Like I said before I'm not happy with where I am at entirely and I need to take responsibility for my actions and so here are the consequences.  Yes, I gained 4 lbs and I'm furious and extremely disappointed with myself at the moment.  As for the measurements I'm happy my boobs have stayed the same because to be honest, well, I LOVE MY GIRLS!  Well and also so does David, hahahaha!  (sorry to any of my family, but come on, we are married)  I'm thrilled about losing 2" off of my hips, to be honest my tightest work pants and jeans have been fitting a little better.  As for my thighs I'm more shocked than anything, I wasn't expecting that at all, but it does make sense.  My arms have always been a weak point so I'm not surprised, I'll have to work on it eventually.  Now to be more accountable for my actions here we go............I haven't been working out as much as I should of, drinking water has been very low, its been more soda than anything, and last but not least I've been eating more junk food and fast food than I have in a really long time.  I know bad Michelle!

So to turn this around I'm going to slowly try and change these bad habits into good ones.  First more water and less soda!  I've noticed lately at the gym that I feel more tired, worn out and not running as well as I used to, so while I was working out I noticed on the TV that it was saying that if you aren't drinking enough water you can be a little dehydrated which will hinder you in your work out!  So more WATER!

Goodnight everyone, thank you for reading this and supporting me in what ways you can, I do appreciate it!  Now to go wallow and try not to cry!

Military wives

I would seriously like to thank all the military wives who have their own personal businesses, not like me who works a job, this is different.  What amazes me is that some of these women do this on top of having an actual job, managing the household, having a husband and kids. Plus some of these husbands are away on deployment or training which is all the more amiable.  If I could be as crafty or have the the faith that a business would thrive right now then I would do it!  Still some of these women are extremely talented, like for instance Kacey; who is the proud owner of Pearls to Dogtags.  She makes these amazing bows for your hair or even head bands not only for you but also for your kids if you would like.  I love her bows because they are military themed but she also has others that are great for someone who just wants something cute to put in their hair for the day.  If you would like to check her out you can find her on my Facebook page in my likes or even just go to this page and like her page; http://www.facebook.com/PearlsToDogtags. 

Both my friends Aileen and Miranda do Scentsy which I have to say is a great product!  Scentsy is a flame less candle that you get to put into a decorative holder and put a light bulb under it and it burns the wax down and releases its aroma into the air to take away any odors in the atmosphere.  Plus the scents are freakin amazing and I have to say that holder are really cute.  If you interested in possibly getting some let me know and I'll direct you to these wonderful ladies.

These woman are great and are doing wonderful things with what time they have while they husbands int he military.  I think they are also doing it because they might need something to keep them busy on lousy days.  So if you feel in the mood for spoiling yourself try and see if you can find an military significant other who is selling their hobby.  Instead of buying locally, buy for your country,  WOW that was cheesy.  Well night all!

I can fix it......

So as I was saying before I worked on my friends trail wedding cake today since it was my day off, well after staying up until 2 a.m. yesterday just baking the cake and trying a buttercream recipe (which epically failed) I finally finished backing of total of 3 tiers.  Then this morning and all afternoon I made a new recipe of buttercream and assembled the cake and decorated it.  In the process of everything I managed to slice open my finger with a pocket knife trying to get wooden dowels to the right size for support of the cake.  Yup its pretty nasty and hurts like crap.  No, I'm not putting a picture up of my cut finger, that would be disgusting.  Well anyways as an aspiring baker and professional chef I like to learn to do new things and techniques and watch ingredients start out as one thing and then be combined to something else and be totally amazed at how they mix together.  For example it was just some much fun to just see normal butter and three cups of powdered sugar sit in a bowl and then after about three minutes of mixing it on medium its turns into a creamy mixture, it was just amazing how it all turned out.  I have learned a couple of things today on how to make the wedding cake better.  First I have to make the frosting thicker so that when I put the second layer of frosting over the "crumb frosting" it still wont show any of the cake crumbs.  Second I learned that I got to find a better way of cutting the dowels (duh, finger) and placing them so that the cake has a better balance and doesn't look uneven.  I just hope that the cake turns out great the day of, at least I have all the equipment and I know now how to use most of it!  Oh and third I now know that I need to be better organized with all of the ingredients and the prep, I might be able to shave off a couple of hours.  But here is a picture for you all, if your not a follower on here but you still read, comment on Facebook, I would love your honest opinions.

I'm tired but I'm going to continue to finish watching an awesome all time great movie; Kate and Leopold.  So I will talk to you all tomorrow!  Oh and tomorrow I'm thinking of getting some new running shoes since my feet are starting to kill me at work and getting blisters while working, any ideas on some good ones I should get that under $100!